still FATE

2008-08-03T02:57:00.002+08:00

I GOT NEW BLOG. LOL. juz feel like changing ba. maybe will give me motivation to update. and i using livejournal cause i think quite user friendly. maybe except that cant play tag board.

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MY NEW BLOG

2008-07-27T02:59:00.001+08:00

what i was trying to say was to show them we work hard for sth we love, and not be arrogant of sth we do. LOLOLOLOL. "not arrogant for nothing" =.= sry ppl i admit i got language barrier. rofl.

2008-07-22T02:12:00.002+08:00

hi people. just a short note to you guys who read this. juz take a few mins off this busy, stressed up life. go to your friends and juz tell them jiayou. LOL. well, letting your friends know that you still do care for them in such a busy and packed up life, isnt a bad thing right?

2008-06-17T02:15:00.002+08:00

ROARS. year 3 is really no slack time man. wan to slack during hols also no time to. kns. i want to faster graduate la.

Ps! i hope we've a chalet or sth together. we haven really been together like since before fantazia. i noe i go missing alot of times yea. lol. but i miss having fun with u all lots also.

and yes baby, we shall buy a board game next week to prove our fetish for it. LOL. ok i lame.

ANYWAE. FCUK SCHOOL!!!! YEAH!!!!!!!

2008-06-03T04:09:00.003+08:00

PEOPLE. WATCH THIS TWO VIDEOS AND YOU'LL KNOW WHY THEY DESERVE TOP 3 SPOTS IN BODY ROCK ALONG WITH THE COMPANY. KABA starting to cui which i dunno why. Top is Choreo Cookies in 1st Place and bottom video Team Millenia in 3rd Place.

CRAZY FORMATIONS and SYNCHRONISATION. We can be there but we must work freaking hard. For them to do that in a competition takes lots of discipline. We have passion budden like lacking of discipline. LOL.

2008-06-03T02:39:00.002+08:00

TBG and Studio Wu Performance this weekend. I think it sucks to have a performance during the common test week. Want study cannot study well want dance cannot dance well. den affect till want sleep well cannot sleep well and want play well cannot play well. wtf? liddat both half half. half half sucks but no choice. lol. anywae, i'm glad to be able to learn from wq and jc this time round. haven got a chance to learn from them so far. and i'm glad this family is become closer and closer and hope one day we can make everyone believe in what we do. =)

and i'm loving and missing jamie chan like omgwtfbbq everyday.
liang ge yue le =)

2008-05-16T02:00:00.001+08:00

JAMIECHAN I LOVE YOU

2008-05-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

lol. at baby's house right now. have been so lazy to blog. cuz dun really have much time and main reason is being lazy of cuz. lol. and i got my first personal achievement for 2008 =)))

is to have my time more organised now. although in some areas i do spend lesser time den last time. but i'm getting motivation for my studies now which is quite good. means i dun sleep that often during lessons and try my best not to skip any lessons. and i'm doing tutorials! and starting projects early =))) lawl. and of cuz trying to spend more time at home which i have been wanting to.

may not have 10000000000000% regular visit/stays in studio but i'm still working hard on dance. and finally found the style i want to focus in after dancing for nearly 2 years? HOUSE DANCE YO. it's starting to make me addicted. i still do like hip hop though, but the feel inside me for hip hop is not the same as for house. i dun noe why but its juz sudden that i got feel for house lo.

and yea. i've been spending alot lesser time with my dear PPPPP. but i wont dissapear yo. still LOVE you ppl. =)

and lastly, muahahahahahas. YOU are getting fatter. and i'm gonna continue feed you all the way. LOVES =)))

2008-04-26T00:43:00.002+08:00

To Ron/Ore (Nice & Easy), Faird/Bw (TerriNagi)

Be it SUSHI, 8 STEPS or PPPPP, we've come together as friends and dancers.

Be it the times whereby i've pangseh you all or be it the times you guys have been sacarstic to me, I know we don't take it to heart.

So for KO Night tommorow, I wish you all the best and do yourself proud. And thanks to you guys for helping me learn so much which i want in dance. =)

And to my baby, i just want to say WO AI NI. The rest of the million things which i want to say to you, I don't have to write it here. Cuz you hear it from me everyday. =)

*pin point me all you want for the act cute photo, people. LOL.

2008-04-21T23:55:00.003+08:00

I'm glad that for DANCE, every end is a new beginning. so there will never be an end. I've got loads to say but due to my lazyness, i shall just say,

"I love this passionate family of mine"
NRA

2008-04-12T03:17:00.002+08:00

PEOPLE! I AM STILL CHAN JIA JUN. ROARS. NO TIME!!!!!!! MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC. ALAMAK. WTF????????????????????????????? EVERYONE'S BUSY. I'M ALSO BUSY. WE SHALL HIRE SOME FREE PEOPLE.

sorry just want to rant. knnhgccbwtfbbq. back to work. and to bathe. and to sleep. and to wake up. and to dance. ROARS. i'm afraid to touch music again. LOL.

FCUK SCH COMING!!!! 2 DAYS. In the past 2 months of holidays. i can count the number of days i havent been in the studio with just fingers of one hand. lololol. i'm awaiting for the rehearsals at convention. i love convetion center and i noe it would be a enjoyable performance. lol. but.... i just want a day. maybe just a sunday after sch starts and when fantazia's over... to go sentosa to chill with my friends. LOL.

and thanks JAMIE CHAN for being around me. hehs. OVERSEAS HOLS LETS GO!

2008-04-09T01:38:00.002+08:00

i failed as a friend, as a child, as a lover, as a dancer, as a student, as a sibling and as a person all because i didnt try hard enough.

help me learn how to take care of myself so that i can take care every other things around me.

shld i have faith in my body and just dance all i can or just keep worrying about the injury and do as little as possible to be on the safe side? screwed up feeling.

someone play me the song "bad day"

2008-03-27T02:27:00.002+08:00

yes. look at this. the 1st choreo was the gosuest lyrical hiphop choreography i've ever seen in my life so far. look at how well they expressed themselves and the song with their choreo. Definitely impressed me and touched me. ALOT and i seriously mean alot. It's not just about hitting the beats or grooving around. just watch the video over and over again and u'll feel it.

and i wonder what does it takes for them to come up with such choreography. to potray their imagination to a song. and how to even train imagination?

and today i learnt alot more about dance during cleaning xuan feng's ice box and fredy's showcase. the way they execute their steps is so so so impt in a choreo. thanks man. and motivation is here again! muahahaha.

and to that LAZY one who's playing mj right now. see u tml =)

2008-03-19T01:11:00.002+08:00

TIRED. WTH. i don't know why i dun have the appetite to finish eating my food when i am super hungry these few days. my body is screwed. lol.

2008-03-13T04:10:00.003+08:00

lol. i failed myself again. rejected playing dota and wanted to sleep but ended up watching alvin and the chipmunks. lol. and watched bee movie yesterday. both are nice and funny. lol. and i wonder what time i will wake up tml again. i guess this bad habit of mine needs more than determination to change. lol.

i need some time for me to be alone yet i find it boring to be alone. contradicting.

2008-03-10T16:42:00.000+08:00

i rested at home today. and i watched 4 movies. lawl.

2008-03-10T03:24:00.005+08:00

The Happiest Day of My Life

well. everyone was required to submit a tribute photo to ronnie for fantazia's tribute and i had to search for mine. but i didnt have to think much of where to find that photo cuz as far as i remember, i havent took a photo with my family for a very long time, so the only place i could search for one was those old photographs album my mum started collecting since a decade or 2 ago. lol.

and i started looking through the albums...

i saw photos from my family overseas trips, photos when we moved apartment, photos taken when my parents brought me and my bro to sentosa, hawpar villa and places when we were still young, photos when my bro was born and 2 years before him was me, and den photos of my parent's wedding and when they were still dating.

those were memories, some which i could remember and some which i couldnt as i was still a baby. but all of them were closed to my heart and looking at those photos made me feel touched and loved. but now i've kinda drifted away from them in relationship. and it was only recently that i accepted that they're the most impt ppl to me in my life. its not that previously they weren't but just that i was living in my own world and took them for granted once i entered secondary school. i've always know that i love them but nvr at a point of time think of maintaining a good relationship with them, but i'm glad now i've realised that, and started thinking.

This was one of my parents' many wedding photo and i decided to use it as a tribute photo. lol. and i found out that the happiest day of my life happened even before when i was born. Yes, it's during my parents' marriage. Just from the photos, i could already feel their happiness la. and without them, there would not be me.

and my dad and mum look super charming and beautiful can. lol. and i hope they would see this photo during the tribute session. lol. DANCE have been, currently is, and will always be my passion and i hope i will make them proud and grow up to be a better child.

2008-03-10T01:55:00.002+08:00

lol. i'm gonna make a bold statement. if arsenal dun win the epl this season, i will not be a fan of theirs anymore. the players are getting lazy and they dun play the way they used to anymore.

2008-03-08T04:39:00.003+08:00

core, leg strength, arm strength, flexibility, spot, turns, musicality, choreography, catch steps, isolations, control. slowly train. by october i shall see how much i have improved.

2008-03-07T04:14:00.002+08:00

chat with the PPPPPs. wonderful it was. yoda i am talking like. hahahahahahamuaaaaaaaa. LOUD LAUGH OUT. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

it was indeed nice to talk abt a similar passion. talking abt our aims. and of cause other unneccessary but hilarious stuffs also. its impt to share, so that u may discover similar things u and ur frens can work on together. and of cause help each other to clear thoughts which have been stuck in our minds.

AND COME ON. OUR PASSION, DREAMS, AND ACHIEVEMENTS TO HAVE. INCLUDING ALL THE LOVE AND LAUGHTER WE'LL SHARE. SO 3............... 2.................. 1..............

WE WILL WE WILL ROCK YOU~
OEI~ echoes
ROCK YOU~
YEAH~ echoes

=.=

Who else can be lamer. come try.

yes i love
1.my family
2.dance
3.my friends
4.my future girlfriend(if i get one)LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

2008-03-05T05:48:00.001+08:00

Ac Milan 0 -2 Arsenal

=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

i'm happy =)

but i still want to find that girl. the 2nd BP girl. Bakerzin Paragon girl. LOL.

2008-03-02T04:49:00.002+08:00

i like the song "Desperate". lol. i enjoy friends' company but i'm not a good friend. lol. fucker. TIREDDDDD LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. nbchwtfcbknnkbkpljloser. LOL. nights.

2008-02-27T03:20:00.002+08:00

wooohooo. dance. actually i got nth to blog abt. ok. i shall just say i love dance and i love my friends. LOL. who wants to love me? COME NOW. LOL. and i don't mean you baowen. ROFL. siam ji pi pls.

2008-02-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

lol. sad. eduardo's injury. is making me sad. lol. an injury which could possibly end his career. and cause him to be handicap. lol. there're so many ppl dying and suffering everyday, whom i don't know, tt's why i dun feel anything for them. but i am suprised that i can feel sad for a player from my favourite club. lol. seriously. they are just people i see from tv. a stranger(whom i know) to me. but i can actually feel sad for them. maybe i just love arsenal too much. LOL. anywae. juz pray for him man. its a major loss to himself, his club, his country and everyone who loves football. so pray for him to gain strength to have speedy recovery. and pray for everyone around you.

random

2008-02-19T01:08:00.001+08:00

jealous kid. lawl.

2008-02-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

parkour. RESPECT!

2008-02-14T02:35:00.002+08:00

zzz. i'm addicted. next week i'll be free. muahahahaha.

lol. why am i getting faker and faker. i am being fake to everyone including myself. lol.

and i am zzz using ultimate lots of vulgar recently. like become a habit liao. keep coming out non stop whenever i talk normally. damn. no good.

and i seriously have alot of bad habits. the worst is being lazy. super no good. i sure regret someday for being lazy. like maybe flunk my papers or sth. why do lazy ppl noe that they are lazy and it's like so hard for them to change. damn me.

and why this post like so negative. i didnt even thought of what to blog abt before i logged in. maybe it's just that i want to confess all these evil things inside me. HAHA.

and to ron and bw, cheers to our aim. of cuz including you other guys. (if you're thinking if it's you, YES! it's you! but if you dun think it's you, den it's not)(actually quite easy guess la, GUYS u noe who u are and what our aims are without me saying)

so i shall STUDY!

2008-02-08T02:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO. XIN NIAN KUAI LE.

juz watched finish KUUUUNGGG HUUUUUUUUU DUNK with my cousins. lol. since i isolated myself away from my family a few years ago, the only time i do hang out with them is only during cny? lawl. fcuking anti social me. and finally i got shorts to wear. bought berms. hehs. happy =) but exams is next friday =( gd luck everyone. lawl.

2008-02-02T03:16:00.000+08:00

lol. i failed to do a freestyle in front of people. i've lost the confidence to. i noe i will suck damn badly at it. out of 100 ppl in nra. i would be the worst. why? becuz i wont be able to dance with confidence. freestyling is sth i want to do so much, but how to improve when i dun even dare to dance infront of others. its true that i dun have the confidence to show ppl wad i'm not good at. cuz i noe i will be totally noob to the point where it's totally weird when i try to dance. esp when i noe i'll be laughed at. lol. if its sth for fun i dun mind but when it's sth i want to improve on so much, its super discouraging. but i still haven got time to do some self practice. juz have to wait for sch to finish. and i better dun dissapoint myself and anyone else the next time i do it.

2008-01-28T01:56:00.000+08:00

hello ppl. finally mission's accomplished. everything went well today and i'm proud of every single NRA members. those who joined the competition and came to support. it's a BIG FAMILY man. and i noe we're noisy everywhere we go and may make ppl around dun feel comfortable. but it's hard to control when a group of friends gets high la. esp when its such a large group. honestly i would feel very happy if we manage to claim all the prizes la. of cuz it's to show the hard work we've been through to keep improving ourselves. but everyone deserved what they got la. it's fair, because in such an event which the competition is so high, the results will depend on the judges liking. i noe there's dissapointment in the air but i'm still proud of the process everyone's been through.

and to Fbeatx and S.O.C. they are champs to me. i've seen how good each individual are and how good they are as a group. 2 words. "DOPE" and "INSPIRING". what's missing is just the results on paper. but its written on everyone's heart.

and also ReVoc, OnBit, Wicked Tempo, Suffle V, Phunky Chemistry, Static Flow, Mystic Rouge and last but not least E'Dee Vance. We've all improved together as a club throughout this competition. Stamina, Showmanship, Technique, maybe not so much on basics, Teamwork, Choreography and lots of other things through our hardwork. But we all know we can do even better performances if our basics, techniques and all the stuffs i mentioned juz now all are already in us. so it's all back to training time man. there's no limits to DANCE. and the most impt thing as a club is that we got closer each time we get together for one another. =) and we got to noe other dancers out there who are friendly and nice ppl. and it'll be good if we're able to work and learn from each other together next time. k la. sleep liao. ITS ALL SCHOOL WORK NOW. PROJECTS AND EXAMS. DAMN. SCREW STUDIES. LOL. NIGHTS.

*p.s : one wish. i hope that all nra f unka groups can come together one day and put up a performance of all items. cuz it'll be without stress with pure fun and enjoyment, and i'm sure everyone will love to do the choreo which they've been working so long and so hard for one more time. =)

2008-01-21T01:32:00.000+08:00

not very happy with the results but there's nth which we can do to change it.

for finals, we must make it our best and not let ourselves down.

2008-01-19T02:33:00.000+08:00

lol. today was dance morphism. the event which i didnt helped out much as part of the committee. have to admit that i am a gu bye. its also the day i did a freestyle in public. i knew i was gonna get owned. but i didnt regret going up. although i sucked. seriously sucked. ULTIMATE SUCKED. i noe it myself. lol. i just wanted to go up, and get my first experience, and see how much i could do. i tried to show that i'm not nervous by giving retarded face and smile. but one i heard the music i didnt noe wad to do. confidence went down all the way. eyes were juz on the floor. brain couldnt think of wad to do. body wasnt able to move with the music but except the first beat? after that, my ears went deaf. body was juz moving retardedly not to the music. i dun care abt whether i am better or lousier than the other person i'm battling but its all about winning myself. everytime i dance, i want to be beat myself. overcome things which i couldnt do. although i do compare with others but it's to learn from them. the first route to freestyling may be talent, response and musicality which i dun have. but there's always another way which is by working hard and gaining experience to do it.

PLUS. i have talented and HARDWORKING friends around me whom proved to me that freestyling is sth which can be trained. they are my inspirations and i vow that i'll train hard to accomplish that. because it's part of DANCE. i dun wan to only be able to do choreography.

2008-01-06T03:23:00.000+08:00

i noe everyone's busy including me. dun have time to prac, to do assignments, to sleep and do our own things. so JIAYOU everyone. work hard all funka groups! rmb nth is impossible to accomplish! 14 days left. we're a BIG FAMILY. =)

its short. cuz i dun have time to blog. if i have the time, it would be at least 3 pages of blogging. so till then~ until funka's over i guess.

2008-01-01T20:56:00.001+08:00

its 2008. i am gonna still be as lazy. and its gonna be ONE FULL YEAR of DANCE to me. =)

2007-12-24T03:38:00.000+08:00

have been so busy for the past weeks that i started to neglect certain things again. having so much things to do that i start taking things around for granted. so i want to sae thank you and sorry to everyone around me. thanks for being around and sorry for wadeva i have done wrong. as everyone noes, i am super ultra blur and might accidentally be rude in some way or another. eg. interuppting ppl talking or nvr hear what others telling me.
thanks to those who've helped me in everyway and sorry to those friends whom i couldn't be there to help. ya. the morale of this entry is that i am not a very nice person so i want to apologise for that. and i just want to sae thank you and sorry to everyone. LOL.

i enjoyed 22nd december like every other nra ppl who spent the day together did. a good performance and a great celebration.

standards are hard to maintain because goals are different each time. unless we're determined to make each attempt a better one in regardless of how important it is.

2007-12-20T01:33:00.000+08:00

MUAHAHAHAHAHA. GIGI TORRES is my new IDOL and confirm my FAVOURITE one. her "My Love by Usher" choreo is most gosu can. i'm gonna learn it. mooohahahahahaha.

anywae. thanks to everyone who wished me on my bdae. i really think its a damn nice thing for someone to do when you sincerely go up to sumone and wish him or her happy birthday. so thanks everyone! be it from messages online or smses, it's great to noe that my bdae is remembered. thanks those who chipped in for the present. thanks to NRA, Ann, 5Ps, my seniors, juniors and ppl from my batch. thanks to RJT. thanks to my pri sch, sec sch friends and friends whom i noe from other schools. most impt. thanks to my family. my mum and dad and my bro. without them i would not be here. and i'm gonna to treat them to dinner soon. its like the 1st time in my life treating them sth? lawl.

To me, wishes are the best thing that i can receive. =) serious lol. so... xie xie le da jia. but i would prefer not to get tortured on my bdae. cuz i not very strong arh. very easy injured. lol. k la. lets all do well for sat's performance everyone! and those doing jazz on fri, JIAYOU!

2007-12-16T16:14:00.000+08:00

omg. musicality. concentration. i have non of them. and i found out today, that i can't dance. as in really DANCE. cant even catch steps how to add in style. and when i saw fredy and yuxin dance, i was impressed. and it made me realised that i haven really been DANCING till now. its just steps and steps and steps. so now need to focus on new things to train on. lol. it's damn inspirational to see lee daniel, patrick chen and gigi torres dance and hear them talk. and gigi torres choreo damn dope la, although i only saw it from video. i feel demoralised but at the same time inspired. lawl. but of cuz i am letting the inspiration own the demoralization. moooohahahahahahaha. gubye me.

2007-12-12T00:37:00.000+08:00

awwwwwwwwwwww. quite a pity. cant perform for 22nd. i wanted to la. butttttttttttt. juz to rest more instead of push myself to dance so that the dumb injury can fully heal. have to be pulled out. really pity. it's gonna be a fun event la. nvm. i shall treat my body nice so it better heal faster. cuz funka is like in 38 days? omgwtfbbq. lawl. 3 more papers to go. which i didnt study for it. hoho. gg.

2007-12-05T23:39:00.001+08:00

omgwtfbbq. 3 days to common test. and i start studying today. as usual so late. my study plans keep failing. i will never change this habit i noe. LOL. unless i have someone to nag me to study if not i sure keep wasting my time by getting distracted and rotting away. and I AM RECOVERING. don't know how fast, but i am able to MOVE MY LEG WITHOUT PAIN BUT WITH ACHES. lol. my back wont ache as much le but it's like BA GUA NOW. 12 rounds prints on my back cuz of those wooden flame sucking cups. and dunno how many needle marks. the sinseh damn gosu. she nvr ask anything but just ask me lie flat on the bed. den press my thigh until i pain den suddenly i feel sth sharp poking thru my back skin. SHE DIDNT TELL ME SHE PUTTING NEEDLES. LOL. when i wan to turn and look at my back to confirm those were needles, i think already got 6-8 needles on my back le. LOL. den awhile later she lit those wooden cups with fire and attached it on my back and i can feel those things sucking on to my skin. not very comfortable but not very uncomfortable also. but i still fell asleep on the bed cuz i heard she told my mum need around 30 mins. the most pain part has come. she applied some medicine on my calf and rub. and i didnt noe why my calf got some swollen thing. and she rub damn hard. and it was SUPER WTFBBQ GOSU PAIN. i gek till my hands sweat. LOL. seriously gosu pain.

so hopefully my muscle aches will all stop by friday. so maybe i can start dancing next week. and now i have sore throat. gu bye. made me feel so sick and feel like slacking today. alright. i go cont study. bye bye.

2007-12-02T21:18:00.000+08:00

i wonder how can korean drama be so sweet. i only went to the living room and watched it for abt 5 mins without knowing what show is that but the feel juz kept flowing out. gosu.

and ann and ryan item at o school recital really touched everyone deeply. it was really a once in a lifetime performance which cannot be missed.

and seriously, the thought of not being able to dance is imba shit. it felt just like losing my purpose to live. and did i not take care of myself? i did, but maybe not enough to prevent myself from getting injured. a learning lesson for me indeed.

2007-12-02T04:47:00.000+08:00

for the first time in my life. i felt so scared of what may become a reality.

2007-12-01T03:15:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna rest and pray and rest and pray that this injury shan't hinder me in my dance progress. gu bye. i think it's a retribution for slaying too many monsters in psp. and now i'm limping like them. i am TRYING to have showmanship but i still cant give it all out. sucked. and training freestyle takes more than talent. it takes confidence which i don't have. gu bye. and i am still looking at the floor when i dance. in irwin's item. this is gosu shit. actually i didnt thought abt wad i wanted to blog. juz typed out wadeva that poped out of my mind. and i will work hard for funka cuz it's a TEAM effort. dun wanna drag anyone down. so everyone. pray for me pls. and rmb to give thanks. nights.

2007-11-28T09:25:00.000+08:00

COMMON TEST IN 10 DAYS TIME? WTH? I'M GONNA WHINE AGAIN.

2007-11-22T02:38:00.000+08:00

"life CAN be made more fulfilling if we had more time in this world"

correct

"life CAN be made more fulfilling if you do the right things at the right time"

also correct

but time is not sth that i can increase.
the only thing i can do is to study instead of sleep during lessons.
sleep instead of study at night. work only when i am really free. and dance whenever i can.
cuz dancing is the most fulfilling thing to me right now. much much more than finding my love. LOL. that thing will just come when the time is right. but for DANCE, i cant waste any time. it's not just about becoming a better dancer, not just about doing what i like to do. it's about much more things. and talking abt doing the right things at the right time. i should go sleep now. NIGHTS~

and happy 40th bdae to my mum and happy 30th bdae to ann. LOL.

2007-11-20T02:11:00.000+08:00

WORK, STUDY, ASSIGNMENTS, DANCE.

I NEED MORE TIME. CUZ I WANT TO DANCE. DANCE > STUDIES + WORK
and i am gonna starting chionging NEXT WEEK. damn this busy week.

2007-11-09T03:04:00.000+08:00

lol. i realised that there are so so so so much photos that i can put up from xing's multiply. i am going to do like 0.01% photo blogging of the 10000000++++ photos she has uploaded. a pretty funny 1 at amk hub.

started taking photos by acting cool

i suggested to do different poses and ronnie with a GREAT idea started um chio'ingron: i do this pose la *stretches hands and tries to touch something*

me: *laughs*trying to protect myself while others thinking of new poseme: eh come! we do act guai pose!

so like the photo shows, no one cares abt wad i said and ronnie continue to do his stuffs.bw at this point of time did sth stupid and kena aimed by all of us
bw : *ZAO AH*
shane got backstabbed. *end of story* LOL
the 5Ps formal shot except for 1 extra strawberry condom

although it's only a year and a half i've been in nra and around 6 mths i've spent with PPPPP. The memories and the bond we shared and created is already this HUGE. ya i mean this HUGE. this this this this HUGE.

if u cant see it nvm. u just have to know that it's this HUGE. LOL.

it's non measurable u see. and thank you all for leading me to this life which i WANT. i rmb the 1st step which i took, was when we were at alameen's bus stop. i took that bus and followed you guys to bpp mac. talked abt going sentosa the next day and went to bw's hse to stay overnight. if not for that 10 seconds of deciding whether i should follow you all up the bus, i seriously dunno when i will train isolation till. LOL. and i'm sure ronnie alex xing and eve will hate me to take bus home with them.

maybe i've gotten ABIT noisier now then last time, LOL. maybe MANYBITS la. budden sorry if sometimes too over liao become irritating eh. and i also don't know why i left 3hrs to sleep still typing this post la. maybe too long nvr blog liao so now want to make confession. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. each and every single 1 of you have been great great friends la. and let's work hard to be great great DANCERS too.

lol. to me, it's hard because i'm lazy. we all noe wad is expected in dancing. sharpness, accent, feel and everything. juz keep practicing over and over again to get it. once you learnt and get the hang of it, u can apply it when learning new choreos next time. repeated like a million times, *dancing is not about steps*. everyone noes that. i have a bad habit which is to induldge myself with the song when dancing and think got alot of feel eh. budden when i watch myself on video it's like shit. LOL. seriously. i think must keep taking video of ourselves dancing so can see where error.

k la. enough liao. type all these to describe my thoughts only. ppl who read these might have thought of it before le. but it's my turn now, be it wols or wadeva. i have so much goals in my life now. lol.

2007-11-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

omg. found.

2007-11-05T02:03:00.001+08:00

LOL. OK. I AM BACK. it means that................... i am back to normal again. lol. but i am not happy yet. sorry. i am LAZY to blog abt wad has happened recently. juz had 2 peformances yesterday finally had a proper rest after lacking of sleep for 2 weeks. sleeping for 4 hours everyday. lol. and anywae. damn. how to find a person whom i have no clues at all except the face. if i at least have the school, it would be like 99% easier. damn. FATE arh.

2007-10-22T03:08:00.000+08:00

LOL! it's just my template that it's back. i'm not back yet. =x

2007-10-02T23:04:00.000+08:00

i guess it'll take quite a while b4 i officially reopen my blog. lol. cuz i have nth to share with anyone now. i promise my entries will be happy and interesting ones when i come back. lawl. now i have new aims regarding dance and i'll work hard for it =) take care peeps.

2007-09-21T12:54:00.000+08:00

lol. sorry. closed my blog. it'll be back but dunno when.

2007-09-20T01:58:00.000+08:00

i pray for good health, good mind, good body for everyone.

2007-09-18T02:20:00.001+08:00

looking forward to the future. u won't noe wad's gonna happen, tt's wad makes it interesting.

isnt easy but i'm trying hard. actually i'm lil sad. juz a little, when i dun think that much.

2007-09-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

lol. i think there's juz too much coincidence happening in my life le ba. after living for 18 years. destiny? fate? choice? i dun believe in destiny but i believe in fate. and i believe that choices can change fate. lol.

exactly 3 years ago on this date, i used the song wake me up when september ends. but now i'm not gonna sleep anymore. rofl. and i juz ling wu sth. bad answers dosent leads to bad results. results need not be the marks but the learning process. when u learnt sth good from the bad, den wad's so bad abt it? lol.

and helmet head said ji zi instead of zi ji(meaning: ownself). LAWL.

2007-09-14T02:33:00.000+08:00

it still dosent feels good to think abt it. but today has definitely been a better day den yest. and tml will be a better day den today. =)

everything juz makes sense when i allowed myself to think abt it. dun really wanna accept it but i have to. there's no reason for me to keep myself sad when i can choose to be happy. i did wad i could so i juz have to accept that it's fate.

2007-09-13T03:24:00.000+08:00

be brave

2007-09-13T02:17:00.000+08:00

Ann is dope. she fufilled so many of her dreams during her dancing years. i fufilled only one of mine, which is to join NRA and progress on dance after sec sch. i have another BIG DREAM. which is to open a BIG dance school with my dance friends. LOL. and must be dope one, where people from other countries come to singapore to learn dance. maybe i think TOO MUCH, but it's not impossible. lol.

yest was the most suckiest day of my life since 18 sept 2004. almost 3 years. wow. but i noe i have to accept it. fuck. now i need distractions temporarily. i dun wanna stay at home.

2007-09-12T14:08:00.000+08:00

finally it's gonna be over. let's see how long will i take to move on. =)
i need my friends.

2007-09-10T02:17:00.000+08:00

peaceless

2007-09-09T04:49:00.000+08:00

i've learnt so much from this competition and i want to thank everyone for it.

to 8 steps: i am glad to be part of this team. we've gone thru so much training to push ourselves and improve on our item. yes we bonded and we showed love through dance. for God, for everyone.

to whole of NRA: be it alumni, seniors, juniors or freshies. thx for all the wishes, hugs, cheers, handshakes and everything else. i believe that there's always something to learn from each individual and thank all of u guys for being my role model. let's all continue to work hard to grow as both a dancer and a family.

to Ann: thx for being the greatest instuctor ever and guiding us thruout this comp. there's just too much u've done to make everyone improve. u're more than an instructor to us.

yea. finally suntec is over. lets juz put it aside and make sure our next performance/competition will be even a better one. lolololol.

thx peg,xing,sonia,eve,david,shane for coming down. plus the liang cha last week plus the envelope plus the safety pin plus the smses.

2007-09-08T02:36:00.000+08:00

Dear friends,

1stly i will like to thank you all for being my friends. LOL.
thx for entertaining me and letting me entertain u guys.
i seriously feel happy when i make you guys laugh.
and i realised it's easier to live for others than to live for your own self.
when u live for urself, u become emo when u dun get wad u desire.
and i dun need people to make me happy. i can make myself happy when i make my friends happy =)

which is juz like wad patrick from all-stars said to us 8 steps juz now.
dance not juz for urself but for everyone else.
when u dance juz to improve urself and the more u expect of urself, the more stress u'll get.
but when u dance for others. for ur team, for the audience, for ur friends, for the judges.
u show them ur love for dance, u work hard with ur team for a common goal and most imptly enjoy the dance.
u will not only improve technically, but also make ppl feel the goosebumps with all the passion shown. rofl.

yea tt's all.

2007-09-07T01:08:00.001+08:00

less than 42 hours to suntec. once again, go 8 STEPS, POSHBITES, IN.BASS, ROUGH ADDICTS, F.BEATX!, TERENCE, KEN, ALEX. rest well everyone and hope all those who're injured recover fast. let's enjoy performing. =)

2 missions. 1 day.

2007-09-03T00:16:00.000+08:00

prepared and ready to go with a shield.

2007-09-02T04:53:00.000+08:00

Evan Almighty

Lol. not really funny as expected budden i still like the show. =)

there will always be opportunities around you.
it's juz the matter whether u see them and decide if u want to use them.
people will always be given the chance to WORK for what they want.

2007-08-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

juz give me one more week

2007-08-28T03:27:00.000+08:00

i learnt one more thing abt using core to do isolations today. if i hadnt been pointed out, i still would be doing it the wrong way i guess. lol. the standard which i want to reach is still so far away.

soon.

2007-08-26T12:36:00.000+08:00

dreams, dreams, dreams..... zzz...

sorry for my low confidence.
tt's what i hate abt myself.

2007-08-26T03:11:00.000+08:00

i was SERIOUSLY OVERJOYED juz now la. it was 100% into the finals. 5 teams(IN.BASS(8), ROUGH ADDICTS(7), F BEATZ(5), 8 STEPS(8), POSHBITES(6) + 3 solos(ALEX, KEN, TERENCE) into the finals. which means 35 ppl in total got in finals. (i nvr count wrong cuz ken and terence in in.bass. lol. seriously damn happy can. even though most seniors have joined and got into many competition finals b4, still can see that they're damn glad when everyone got in the finals of this comp together cuz it's the 1st time when no one was left out. the feeling really damn high when postbites was being called. damn touched man. getting into finals is really a bonus to me la. allows me to work really hard for another 2 weeks to improve on performing well on stage(mainly showmanship and confidence). as for dance, 1 MORE DAY TILL CLASS RESUMES. MUAHAHAHAHA. back to basics!

thanks again everyone! esp peggy xing sonia eve david and shane. PPPPP rocks =)

2007-08-25T04:03:00.000+08:00

14 hours. once again. GO POSTBITES, IN BASS, ROUGH ADDICTS, F BEATZ. ENJOY DOING YOUR SHOW AND WE'LL ENJOY WATCHING OURS.

2007-08-21T02:31:00.001+08:00

zzzzzzzzzzzz. wad's wrong with my back.

2 mths more.

2007-08-20T01:27:00.000+08:00

LOL. dun hate me for not studying man. i hands itchy keep finding things to do online and i found out i am being tagged by joyce to do this. LOL.

List out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for:
i dun wish to list out anything like that. i will be glad enough if ppl rmb my bdae.
Answer the following questions:
1.(the person who tag you is ...)
Joyce Tan
2.(your relationship with him/her is ...)
My best buddy ever.
3.(your 5 impressions of him/her ..)
she noes how to make her own life meaningful. she's matured, nice, pretty and she dun forget her friends.
4.(the most memorable thing he/she had done for you)
lol. i dunno. too much of memorable stuffs with RJT.
5.(the most memorable words he/she had said to you)
same as Qn 4.
6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will..)
lol. she'll still be my best buddy ever.
7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)
Nothing.
8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...)
I'll regret.
9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be ...)
when singapore snows. LOL!
10. (the most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is ...)
let her noe i'm paiseh for dissappearing from RJT. LOL.
11.(your overall impression of him/her is ...)
Nice.
12.(how you think people around you will feel about you?)
In my own world.
13.(the character you love of yourself are ...)
tolerant with ppl.
14.(on the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are ...)
thinking too much.
15.(the most ideal person you want to be is ...)
a person with much more confidence
16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them ..)
I want you guys to be happy and sorry if i did any hurting things to u all.
17.(pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you)
PPPPP and RJT ppl do if u hands itchy like me. LOL.

3rd HEATS this coming SAT. HIGH. POSHBITES, IN BASS, ROUGH ADDICTS, F BEATX. i noe they'll do great.

2007-08-19T12:13:00.000+08:00

why is it juz a dream? sigh.

2007-08-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

i cant wait for dance class to resume man. 27th JULY! 10 more days. thirst for improvements. LOL.

as i watch our competition video over and over again, i think we were only 50% prepared. =.= so much things to be improved on. main thing is actions all too small on stage. cant see energy flowing out while we dance.

dancing is not all about steps.

i am going to watch secret next monday. lol.

2007-08-16T19:44:00.000+08:00

I AM GONNA START OFF WELL NEXT SEM!!! IT'S CRAZY TO STUDY SUBJECTS WHICH I HAVE TO MEMORIZE INSTEAD OF UNDERSTANDING. LOL. 3 MODULES SUMMOR.

2007-08-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

not a bad day today. i studied more than i did yesterday. but it's not gonna be enough cuz i have 4 papers but i am taking like 4 days to study 1 paper. best of luck to me den.

why am i such a person. lol.

2007-08-15T11:44:00.000+08:00

i noe i do have characteristics which ppl dun really like. but, it's juz me. if ppl cant accept me for who i am, what can i do? leave?

i may not be born a nice person but i did try.

2007-08-15T01:34:00.000+08:00

lol. dunno why recently i like to write down things i found abt myself. today i realised actually i have high pride regarding some issues. and it's not something very good cuz i'll become sensitive when talking abt those issues and end up words nvr go through brain jiu come out le.

and i want to apologise for inconsiderate things i've done/said. i'll try to become a better person eh.

2007-08-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

PHOTOS!

on the way to suntec

@ BK DA BAO FOOD

8 STEPS featuring DT, PY, HH (LOLOLOLOL)RED BULL. it really helps!RJT =) but where are the GUYS!?!?!?Just 8 STEPSwith Annwith DA TOUwith HELMET HEADwith REGGAE KINGwith PEAR YEEwith AH NIAwith BOSSwith FRESHIES
zzz. MICROPHONE
Last but not least. end of Suntec Dance Competition Heats 1

i have high faith, but low confidence. it's not contradicting. i can explain why. lol.

the misunderstanding shld be cleared. we have to stay strong as a group to hold the club and we all noe where the problem is at. and we have to take bigger steps in bonding. tt's how a club shld be.

and i also want to thank Ann for being there for us and giving us advices, Sophan for leading 8 STEPS and every 8 STEPS members for the choreos and effort in our whole item.
also want to thank those who helped in looking at our practices and giving us comments.

LASTLY, i am glad that my family came down to watch. =) thank you.

2007-08-13T02:22:00.000+08:00

happy/sad

am i stuck between or at both ends.

it's true that i can choose how i want to feel, but somehow it's juz not right.

2007-08-12T16:46:00.000+08:00

yes. the heats is over. i did enjoyed and didnt have any regrets with my performance. there are parts which we did better than during our prac and parts which we didnt do as well as we have done during prac. we juz have to keep on improving eh. and i loved the 1 week training at block 40. it dosent mean that with no studio, we cant dance. =)

and now, i wan to thank 8 STEPS. we did a good job and we'll do a even better job if we have a chance to perform again. and thanks to all the supporters who came down or smsed to encourage and cheer for us. =) it really made us feel alot more confident b4 going up on stage. i had a great night yesterday. XIE LE! next up we have poshbites, inbass, rough addicts and f beats on the next 2 saturdays outside suntec tower 5. JIAYOU!

now the video for those who didnt managed to catch it.

2007-08-11T10:22:00.001+08:00

7hrs 40 mins left. CONFIDENCE. I DEMAND U TO COME NOW!!!!!!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOO. I PROMISE MYSELF TO HAVE NO REGRETS.

2007-08-10T02:31:00.000+08:00

i don't noe where i stand. and i think i shld juz leave this aside until then. this is no time for me to feel troubled. i may regret but tt's all i can do. there are others who are more capable than me and if i lose, i have no one to blame except to accept that i am weak. lol.

39hrs 20mins! EXCITED! HIGH! OMG!

2007-08-09T02:03:00.000+08:00

to be exact. it's 64 hours to suntec. wooohoooooo. i can feel my leg recovering. can full out dance liao. thank God. and so sorry to ps those who went butter fact. prac ended late cuz of some changes and cleaning thru the choreo and formations. and we didnt plan our resting time properly cuz left with only 2 more days. this is the time for me to be confident instead of feeling nervous everytime during performance. cuz we've chionged so much and not gonna put our effort to waste. time to enjoy man. gogogo. 8 STEPS.

time to sleep. i seriously hope i can sleep peacefully tonight.

and HAPPY 18th BDAY TO MR OGUS. LAWL.

2007-08-08T09:09:00.000+08:00

Girlfriend.

i think everyone enjoyed it. =)

2007-08-08T02:04:00.000+08:00

everyone's got their injuries. but i think i got mine in the most stupid way. i tied my gutter at my thigh so can pull up my track pants and den i danced to the house. cuz the gutter tighten my thigh muscle den after dancing jiu overstretched it liao. now right leg cui liao. zzz. it better recover when i wake up tml pls. i have no time to rest till it fully recovers b4 i dance again. so ppl pray for miracle to happen pls. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

and i've been struggling with emotions and it really does work somehow when u tell urself u can be happy if u choose to. cuz i juz feel the bad mood gone when i tell myself to let go of it. although i didnt feel happy juz by telling myself to be happy la. lol. at least it was 50% efficient la. anywae. dancing really makes me a happier person. =) gotta sleep.

started off the day bad but i'm glad it ended well. hope i have peaceful sleep tonight. yest i was so pek chek when i wanted to sleep early but end up rolling on the bed cant fall asleep. zzzz.

2007-08-07T01:23:00.000+08:00

still. i am unchangeable. muahahahahahahahahahahaha. hahahahahahahahaha. hahahaha. hahaha. ha. ha. ha. how fake.

2007-08-06T01:06:00.000+08:00

juz came back home from chilling at esplanade. b4 that was at bw's bbq. he's bdae soon eh. national day birthday boy. rofl. this coming week gonna be quite a high week eh. cuz sat suntec heats le. will be chionging like siao la. hope will be confident instead of nervous by den. and my leg abit weird eh. i think pull-ed dao. if no pain means not injury right? lol. and i want to buy psp by end of september. =)

have been trying to stay positive so far.

2007-08-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

hey hey you you i dun like your girlfriend.

LOL. damn it. i tried to act liao man. budden still cant work. no feel at all. gg la my showmanship. hope it'll be good on the full dress rehearsal and actual performance. i'll try harder eh.

somehow i hope it's being realised. but still quite some time b4 that fateful day. lol.

2007-08-02T13:30:00.000+08:00

stress piling up. zzz. i was doing the damn wda report in blaw tutorial and i was moaning abt it so loudly that when the tutor talking halfway the whole class turn back and look at me. =.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.= x 10000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000

august 02/07. not a good day.

2007-08-02T11:21:00.000+08:00

dreams again. funny one though. knocked down by a car when chasing bus. den everyone got shock. budden i juz stood up perfectly fine. i already said it was juz a dream. =.=

trust

2007-08-02T00:38:00.001+08:00

wad's with all these dreams and daydreams man.

not being emo budden i think i'm quite hopeless. so much things which i can do but i didnt.

2007-08-01T01:27:00.000+08:00

alrights. 3 sentence to confess.

I LOVE BALLOONS.

I LOVE DANCE.

I LOVE PPPPP.

Nights ppl. time for harry potter. =)

*updated

*taken from peggy blog
to pegg: sorry for biting again. LOL.

well, well, well. food for thought. truthfully i've taken today's performance quite lightly. as i had the "its only a performance" thought. not that i didnt full out for the item. it's juz that i thought i'm already well prepared to perform so i didnt keep practicing over and over again. but after hearing the debrief, i was reminded that no matter how big/small scale a performance/competition is, we still have to put in the same amount of effort. if we don't, outsiders will take it as our standard has dropped. cuz their expectation of us will only increase each time they see us perform. so next time no matter wad performance also must do nice nice neat neat liao. everyone clear steps and formation swee swee. lol.

damn, i said i will only blog a one sentence entry. =x

2007-07-29T22:53:00.000+08:00

dear friends, pls take care of urselves. damn the weather man. when it's hot, ppl get heaty. when it's cold, ppl catch flu. lol. drink more water and cover blanket when sleeping man. try not to bathe when it's cold. easily catch flu which i juz did. and those suffering from injuries, hope u all recover soon too. exams are coming. holidays too!!! =))))

and i shall start saving again after over spending for the past 2 weeks. no outings for me until after 9 august. 5th august exceptional.

12 to go. =)

2007-07-26T02:36:00.000+08:00

i dislike wed thurs and fri. cuz i sleep at 2-3am the night b4 and have to wake up at 7am. damn. and i'm going to be troubled for at least 3 mths more. damn.

13 more to go! observe observe observe.

2007-07-25T09:29:00.000+08:00

8 months i waited and i missed it liddat. but i guess the day turned out fine afterall. everything in this world happens for a reason.

2007-07-25T00:46:00.000+08:00

it is everytime when projects are due and exams are coming which makes me realise how much i HATE schooling. it's taking too much of my time and brain space to do other things which i want to. and i'm not going to tell myself to enjoy schooling cuz it's NOT wad i want to do man. lol.

i want to quickly get over with all those exam shit and projects so i can happily do wad i wan to do without getting stressed all over. multi tasking is already stressful enough and it's worst when u want to enjoy sth u like doing but keep getting harassed by school stuffs. lol.

i noe that we must work hard to get things we want. but i hate the fact to earn a better income in singapore, u need to have a good education. damn. we humans only have 1 life man. if only singapore's dance standard is higher man. juz dance and u get money.

anywae. i think it's becuz i'm getting more lazy and selfish tt's why i will think liddat. think of only working hard in things i like to do(dance), and dun wan to bother abt anything else. someone tell me whethere all these thoughts are sinful pls. i still dont get the real purpose of life.

after typing this entry, it ends with this 2 points.
1) In this world, u cant possibly have EVERYTHING you want.
you can complain for all u want that singapore is so stressful to live in buy u cant deny the fact that it's also safe to live in.

2) Learn to be satisfied with what you have and you'll live a happier life.

it looks like i have to learn how to accept that 2 points eh? tt's life on earth. i believe heaven will be a much nicer place man.

i'm scared of getting the dissapointment if i fail but i'm not going to give up without a try. JJ JIAYOU =)

2007-07-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

struggling but i'm trying.
sorry to those people whom i've offended unintentionally.

2007-07-22T15:23:00.000+08:00

lol. had rehearsal in the morning yest. it wasnt a tiring one budden i still felt tired after that. den during dance prac i cui liao. slack all the way. mark all the new steps. took a bathe and went to meet everyone else at bp den go town. had dinner at town. damm. we were like walking back and forth so many times. we alighted at far east bus stop. den walk to lido to check movie slots. after that took bus to cine to check also. den decided eat dinner so walked to lucky plaza budden the ayam penak was full and got queue. so want walk back cine eat subway. when reaching le, the ayam penak person called boss sae got seats le. -.- so we walked back. lol. den eat finish walk to cine to chill again. played darts and end up deciding damn long if we want to watch movie anot.

yea. watched disturbia. damn thrilling. i wouldnt sae its a sure must watch movie budden when u watch le u wont regret 1. worth for a $9.50 ticket. yea. overall it was a nice day luh. more movies coming. =)
and to PPPPP, sleep early everyone! rest well so can dance well eh.

2007-07-19T16:29:00.000+08:00

it dosent help by doing this.
i must help myself.

2007-07-18T03:46:00.000+08:00

some small updates.

i wanna watch die hard 4 this sat and jay's new movie secret when it comes out on 8th august. rush hour 3 too!

i wan to get a job! will be filling in job application forms from this week.

no pocket money for me next week! cuz hp bill over. i didnt noe i use gprs till $40+ =.=

wait for me pls.