another performance's over. it wasnt my 1st time performing outside sch but i was still so damn nervous la. kept thinking that i may screw up even till when i am on stage performing. but luckily i managed to pull through la. after that went to watch TRANSFORMERS at PS with PPPPP. it was super duper DOPE man. really a MUST watch movie. there was almost never any part of the movie which u would feel bored of. SERIOUS. lol. sonia ore nicole jaei peggy and zi xiang took cab home after the movie, david got his bro to fetch him den me xing ronnie wei jie and alex waited at the bus stop for the 1st bus at 5.55. and we were like taking so much photos there with xing's cam. exploring how we can use the bus stop to take photos. LOL. will post them after i get the photos. reached home around 7am den play game till 8+ and slept. yes! stay at home today! means save $$$.

dunno dunno dunno. zzz. i wished i can juz relac one corner, budden i dun wan to regret.
ahhhh crapppp. juz dance man. i still feel i'm quite lazy.

argh damn i wanted to blog budden i forgot what i wanted to blog abt. retarded me. anywae i think i'm gonna edit my blogskin a lil once i have the time to.

ALRIGHT! motivation post! lol. i've got so much things that i need to train now. so stop being lazy.

turns(need to spend more time on it)
flexibility(improved abit)
showmanship(i seriously need to stop looking at the floor when dancing if i want to get a start on trying to improve this)

and the reason why i'm getting all this motivation again is cuz of BBOY. watched the bboy toprock choreo juz now and really got dope dao. i gonna SECRETLY start learning toprock and footwork now. LOL. after that den practice with music until i get the feel and can synchro. maybe learn some freezes. powermoves i think wait long long. HERE i come.

Dance first while i wait for a chance.

what. i unexpectedly chionged dance this whole week. took 4 classes and den 1 rehearsal. looks like my 2 weeks break juz gone liddat without any free time. lol. i'm pretty lazy to blog la. tired liao. NightRider saved my from wasting $$$ on cab. though quite waste time. take down to town den change back to woodlands.

take action? when? the same answer i'll give, is to wait. LOL. why do i always wait? dammit.

dun really have much to write abt any other thing except for eve's farewell. have been preparing a suprise for her even b4 our common test started. and yet she didnt suspect anything. hahas. if i was in her place, i would have thought that my frenz were avoiding me. cuz we were meeting so much without her presence, just to prepare a suprise farewell party for her b4 she leaves. i don't noe exactly what her thoughts were while spending last of her days in singapore. but there's this entry which she blogged abt during our common test period. the last 2 sentence did made my heart turned sour.

" time past really fast.. this week is common test week...
everyone studied the best out of hell that they can..
and im now doing nothing, finished my 1 and only test on last Wednesday..
bored like hell! cant meet up anyone.. stay at home like a rotten egg!!
and can u imagine that some had fever juz because he/she ate too much of lychee..?
hahaha~~ and tat stupid someone is me!!! ...
and i know entirely its not the lychee's fault, and part of the reason is because ofMacWing...
i ate tat in e afternoon, and eat lychee at night!!! wooahh~
and both of that made me sick for like 5 days....
and yesh... cant eat the food that i like...
i wanna get well... dun wan have a pair of big swollen eyes like toad~~
that's disgusting.....ewwhh~~..haha~~
anyway. good luck for all e peeps out there for ya exam~~
may ur pass with colorful flying colors..
after tml, all of ya will gonna be free yeah...
so see ya soon.. dun forget me~ i only have 1 week left with ur~..
sob sob~~`...miss ya all!!! "

yea. i've known her for almost a year. but have only got to know her better since i started hanging around with this clique since a mth ago. i can sae that i've only become a member of nra since that mth i made friends with them. i've been wasting my time practicing "isolation" for the last 11mths. LOL.

so.... on 18th June, it was the farewell party day. went to alex's condo and started decorating the function room. went to join the last dance class with eve. said it was early so wanna go yew tee eat. it was easy tricking her la. the oldest yet one of the blurest. hahs. everyone went into alex's condo and the reason was to pee. so the girls left eve inside the toilet and all chionged to the function room. somehow she managed to find us and all the heart warming and wrenching things started.
hearts touched, tears fell.
finished the performance for her, took photos, ate food, started the nvr ending gossip. from the condo till yewtee foodcourt. it was a lovely night. with all the PPPPP around. FOURTEEN of US.
went home and supposedly not to sleep cuz have to meet again for kbox session. but ended up falling asleep and woke up DAMN late. still managed to go over and joined for awhile. eve dedicated a touching song for us. i'm very sorry for turning up late. =(

20th June, farewell day.
goodbye eve.
you've been like a elder sis to all of us.
the care and concern you've shown, we've all seen and felt.
i would like to thank you for that, and at the same time,
i'm sorry if the appreciation u've got in return wasnt enough.
from the way u carried urself at the airport, i can see that u're really strong.
u walked the hardest path which one can ever take.
that is to walk away from ur loved ones.
u also made us watch the toughest road,
whereby you have to walk ALONE.
Our Story dosent ends here, we'll all wait for your return.
PPPPP has 14. not a single lesser.
if you ever think we're far away, just take out a map.
put ur hand on the map from singapore to australia and u'll realise we're only 2 fingers away.
one finger represents YOU and the other represents US.
YOU + US = PPPPP
and dun worry about us forgetting you cuz we WONT. =) take care girl.

and now my own stuffs
wait

did sth bad today, and cried cuz of guilt. -.-"

back from camp. tired. sleep.

my brain was in a mess for the pass 2 days and after yest's long rest i think it's better now already. cleared my thoughts. thought of loads of rubbish which i shldnt have. and now i've got my mind peace and target set. move on den!

lol. i deleted my post again. feel dumb reading some emo post. maybe i will leave the last sentence here. LOL.

i seriously don't like acting so "normal". but i hope i can really be normal.
it isnt as contradicting as it sounds.

I DON'T KNOW WHY AM I SO BLUR TODAY. OMG. WHAT'S WRONG WITH MY BRAIN.

what else can i say about TBG'07? performance by GSC was dope till lao sai and just by seeing WCO makes u lao sai already. and imagine taking photos and shaking hands with them. HAHS! I DID ALL. and i even have shohei's sig on this photo! SEE!

muahahahahas. and i bought a damn nice electric trouble shirt. spent a whole day, night and dawn with PPPPP. played guessing games with them and i don't know if they enjoyed or hated it. LOL. but we sure loved each others' company.

Wj, Farid, Shane and David with GROUND SCATTER CREW.

This was a super random pic. i asked them to all turn around to take a pic when they were all doing their own stuffs. and they all reacted so fast by posing st8 away. LOLOLOL. kinda nice right? no one was blocked when it was so impromtu. budden my camera lousy la.

alrights. i gotta sleep now. i hope to have PREPIX here in Sg for the next TBG. hope some Oschool management reads this. LOLOLOL. nights!

i wonder when the time will come.

omg. today is dope till lao sai day. had camp comm meeting in sch and den went to town for SINGAPORE BATTLE OF THE YEAR 2007. i'm no bboy budden i like watching ppl break. me alex and david went to plaza sing to eat b4 going to scape youth park for boty. we were eating at food court and den.

me : (sees 3 guys sitting infront us) eh alex, they wear till so hip hop, they dancers izzit?
alex : (notice one of their shoes) not sure. eh, look at his shoes, crocs eh?
me : oh. eh they not singaporeans rite? looks like some japan guys.
alex : think so.

after eating, we took bus down to somerset and went to scape youth park for boty to start. there were 4 bboy crews competiting. RF, FTC, FUYO and BFC. out of the 4 got 3 dope crews. the showcase items made me shit all over la. maybe it's cuz my 1st time watching bboy compy live in singapore ba. so i didnt expect the standard of bboy crews in sg to be this high. *claps* for them man.

ok here's the ultimate lao sai part.

alex : eh jiajun! u see there! those were the 3 guys eating infront us at plaza sing just now rite?
jiajun : (turns and see) eh ya hor. they really dancers sia.
alex : eh. got chance is wco anot?
(both of us including baowen david and weijie start getting excited)
jiajun : OMG! i think is leh!!!!
Host : ALRIGHT! LETS WELCOME FROM THE LAND OF THE RISING SUN.............. WRECKING CREW ORCHESTRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me, alex, bw, wj : (screams and shakes all over) OMG! WRECKING CREW ORCHESTRA! (chants) WRECKING CREW! WRECKING CREW!

wtf lol. machiam preview of THE BIG GROOVE 2007 liddat. cuz ground scatter crew also performed. damn looking foward to tml man. good night guys. need rest. my body's failing me.

LOL. its one of the most hilarious nights in my whole life juz now. missed our last bus and we laugh till high. den high liao laugh even more abt other things. laugh till peng. last paper tml! and i only studied 1 chapter for that module. tired alr. sian. shall study as much as possible ba. nights ppl!

when the time comes, do i just say it out?

damn blaw. so much to study. i still haven touch my mwa and pom. i took this sem too lightly. hahahahas. dance > studies. friends > studies. but we do hang out even much more to study together. how great it is, to have friends with u, to do all the things u like or don't like together. who cares abt distractions when we're spending good quality time together? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

woots! it's like the first time i reach home the earliest while hanging out late with PPPPP. LOL! cuz we had dinner at woodlands instead of the usual bp. well, my 1st time eating at sakae sushi. and i found out i dun really like it. all i liked were the sushi which has tuna or egg in it. HAHAHA.
david's really humourous man. great at telling jokes and imitating celebrities. had to agree that woodlands really dun have the feel for gathering as compared to bp. I WANNA MOVE OVER TO BP!!! only half an hour journey to sch. =(

making decisions.

there's juz so many decisions we have to make in our lifes. and whenever we come to one, there're juz so much things to consider about, before u finally decide. and sometimes, even if the odds of decision A(a safer choice) overides decision B(the riskier choice), u might still want to try out for B if tt's really wad u want. well. maybe an easier way to make a choice is to ask urself 1) what you want? and 2) are you prepared to handle any problems that will come in your way.
it'll be so much better than weighing the problems u'll have, in making either of the choice.

not ready.

*edited