alrights.
slow down.
dun rush and jump into things.
if it's meant to be den it'll come.
it's not some kind of game.
so let nature take its course.
=)

heroes is too dope. think i gotta sleep at 430am and wake up at 9am to meet them ltr. tired budden cant keep myself off distractions from sleep. LOL. think it'll be a fun day tml. =)

common test's next week. dun think i gonna fare well for it. have been trying to get myself not to think too much abt stuffs and it worked pretty well. chatting and joking with friends non stop is the best way to stop myself to isolate one corner causing that damn brain to think too much and get sian 1/2. the feeling i get from communicating with type A & B ppl is juz so different.

how do i continue from here.

yea. i'm feeling so much better. maybe the frustration i had been thru helped me got over with my problem. so it aint a bad thing for me to think too much also.

well, i enjoyed my day today with friends. =) will be seeing them often though there's 2 weeks break from dance class b4 break starts.

i feel ya, man. <- sentence of the day. LOL!

getting into me.

it's frustrating to see you not doing the things u keep telling urself to do.
so what if you are born to be such a person? u wouldn't want to stay like that forever would u?
u noe it ain't easy but look at it from the other point, what's so difficult about it?
as long as it is what you really want to do, juz do it la. even though u're not being urself but u will be doing something that you want right? and not juz doing something for the sake of doing it.
so chan jia jun. pls get a hold of urself.

i don't think i'm really ok. i'm letting ppl around affect me too much. or maybe i'm affecting myself too much.

ahah. i'm writing my blog entry on paper since i'm stuck to this dumb table. feeling tired yet awake la. wanna find some place with plug to use my laptop but my whole body is so stuck to the table.

well. i don't noe if it's because i'm tired or what which cause me to get so frustrated over myself. but i just can't stop thinking too much. i feel that i'm still the same me back then. feeling that imba low confidence i always used to get. talking to friends which i've known for quite some time has also become a problem. everyone seems like a stranger to me again. this dumb problem have been clinging on to me for quite some time le. what i did was always to hide. walking away was the best way to make me feel better cuz i dun like showing that imba blur low confidence face to others. but when i don't walk away, what i usually do is to meddle with stuffs on my hand. hp's the best example. if not den i'll try to sleep, but stuffs juz keep attacking my mind. I tried ways to counter this. I learnt how to joke, joke to make others and myself laugh. but it dosent work all the time. there are times when ppl talk abt normal or personal stuffs which i can't. i am not used to showing others the emotional side of me. tt's why i juz think thru most of the stuffs myself and end up getting nothing sorted. resulting in frustration. and i wonder how come i haven gone insane till now. LOL. i just so hate to get the wrong kind of attention or impression from others. even though i said before that i judge myself. LIES. i'm a human and human gets confused sometimes.

it's easy to stay optimistic most of the time but when the mood gets low, it gets real bad.

i need rest. so i'm going home early today.

after watching them dance today. i noe i have to work alot even harder. cuz i want to be able to dance like them. the groove that some of them shows, really inspires me. looking at how they dance and comparing with how i feel i dance determines why they are better than me. i need to put in more effort if i want to improve. jiayou arh!!!

icebox.

SICK!!! irritating flu!!!

lol. another performance is over. have been a wonderful but tired week. and i actually messed up my steps in the 2nd chorus of the hip hop segment. i thought i already got the whole choreo stuck in my head le la. damn it! although it was only a 3 second screw up b4 moving into another formation.
imagine if i forget my steps and get stunned doing nth. i think it will haunt me for life. zzz.

and it's time for me to catch up with my studies. but i still wan to be stuck in dance and friends.

SUNDAY. is rest day as usual. my muscles are all still aching. and i have one whole week of rehearsals starting from tml b4 the performance on the coming saturday.

SUNDAY. is the day for me to relax and think through stuffs and set some plans on what i should do for the rest of the week.

SUNDAY. used to be such a boring day to me. but since now i'm so busy with stuffs. i need SUNDAY as it's my only free day.

SUNDAY. is the day i miss my friends. Laugh Out Loud.

deleted post. LOL!

alrights. i think today's the day which i reach home the latest during a school day. 2.30am alrights. i left 3hrs plus to sleep b4 i have to wake up for school budden bleach 125 is out and i want to watch it b4 i sleep. 20 mins b4 i dl finish plus 25mins to finish watching it. i will be left with 3hrs to sleep den.










wad if................

one word. "sigh"

not a good day.
hesitating too much.
have my own reasons for that.

i have a choice which i can make.
but not without consequences.

kinda shit.

have been reaching home at 1am almost everyday recently. hahs. MAYBE i will come home early tml. lol. wanna sleep now but i have work to be completed and submit later. but i'm still taking my time to check stuffs online and BLOG. lol.

well. i shall share a joke here. i've got a friend. who wanted to dry his beanie(those look like winter hats which u wear it and cover ur upper head) so he decided to try a faster way by putting it into a MICROWAVE. and it MELTED. cuz the beanie's made of acrylic. ULTIMATE rite? claps for him pls. LOL!

wanted to blog this yesterday.
there are SOME things in this world which you don't have to ask for perfection. for example(wealth, looks, expectations of others) this is because it dosent necessarily make you happy if you get all the things u want. learning how to be SATISFIED with what you have, is an easier way to happiness.
but there are also things which you should seek for perfection. for me, a good example will be dance. there are too much too learn in dancing so i cannot juz be satisfied with my standard now. i'll have to strive to improve and den i will be happy. LOL. tt's all. buhbyes.

had my 1st technique class on sat. after that had rehearsal until evening den went to bugis with them to search for bag. dinner at bk. walked around icon and bugis street. den me and alex took 960 home 1st. the others went to town and watch spiderman 3.

sunday woke up at noon den went over grandma hse celebrate grandma's mother's day. 1 week b4 the actual mother day. until around 5pm went home to online. den was asked to go town to search for bag again. lol. met them at cck take 190 to far east. and i saw a "ninja" LOL. i really chua tio, at 1st thought was ninja. had dinner and den went to paragon and den heeren. xing still cant find suitable bag so go till cine and found it. den i found a super big cap in a shop and wore it. and took a retarded pic.
went starbucks to chill and took last train home. and david hor, talked about "working and money" from we met until we all go home.

monday.
no sch on monday. went sch at 3 for rehearsal. body still lazy to really dance today. went to "AL LAMIN" (dunno how to spell) for supper and it was super hilarious. the waiter damn funny. order plain prata den he show air plane taking off sign. den ask for prata cheese and tissue den he sae "tissue?" (throws tissue paper on the table) and said "there tissue" den one more jing dian 1.
xing: uncle, i want mee soto without chilli.
(uncle just shakes head)
xing(repeats): mee soto without chilli
(uncle continues shaking head)
xing: huh? dun have chilli or wad?
(uncle continues shaking head)
everybody looks at uncle and ???
uncle: don't have mee soto

everyone: =.=" followe by HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAA. ULTIMATE!

buay ta han. that got everyone high and kept laughing thruout e supper la. and i also gone crazy. now people noes i've got BIG EYES with stretchable eye lids. =.= time to sleep. tml got dance class. woots. =)

sentosa @ labour day

its rest day today. have been stretching, training, dancing consequtively for 4 days straight since wednesday. body now aching and very easy numb le. lol. gtg off to grandma hse le. bb!

to RJT: shall meet soon watch spiderman 3. rofl.

oh wow. i have loads to blog abt. didnt have sch on monday. had duck rice for lunch with mum, aunt, grandma and cousin. and i met gen and friends at jurong after that. they wanted to have lunch at pizza hut budden end up eating at foodcourt instead. den her 2 frenz left den we 3 go mac. sharon used e comp den gen do her hmk AWHILE. den jiu wan go home liao. rofl. the retard was so damn high that day. jumped off e seat and stepped on my shoe and she luffed like siao. sent her home den i went back to bukit timah market to meet up with wei jie bao wen vanessa and mian bao. i da bao'ed DUCK RICE again back to studio since they finished theirs le. waited for class C finish den we went to 73 to prac awhile and had to leave cuz got workshop there. den everyone met up at bus stop to go for supper at the porridge shop. after eating was preparing to go home budden ended up hanging out with baowen alex ronnie peggy nicole jaei xing eve at bukit panjang. had no bus to go home so me and alex went bao wen hse to stay over. the 3 of us + peggy walked back to cck. talked abt funny stuffs. LOL. watched the lame naruto movie 3 and slept till around 8+ den go home prepare for sentosa outing on LABOUR DAY.

i met up with peg eve and nic at bp to take bus to harbourfront. ron was still sleeping when we called him. rofl. reached there and chilled at the hawker while waiting for ron and david. den i did one damn malu thing. they want to order carrot cake and the stall was right infront of us. den i shout "Uncle! Cha Kuay Tiao San Kuai De!" den the uncle point to the right. and i was blur. and den i realise Cha Kuay Tiao is the noodle. Carrot cake is call Cai Tao Kuay. LOL. MALU SIAAAAA. The uncle still sae to me "Cha Kuay Tiao zai na bian" gg-ed.
we went to vivo to take train after ron and david come. 1st time take the newly built train. quite fast lor, st8 bring us to sisolo liao. found xing and we settled. den wei jie, jaei, zi xiang also reached. den play play play. play monkey till damn high lahs. everyone did super funny and retarded stuffs. bathed and went vivo for dinner arnd 7pm. had burger king for dinner and i ordered the DOUBLE BLACK PEPPER BEEF SPIDEY MEAL. i think its called this way la. LOL. bought doughnuts with wj david ron at vinco and we queued for like so damn long. and i only bought a single chocolate delight. everyone started getting high after dinner. once we left bk we became retards. "holds the railing and started twirling rounds and rounds" and started taking videos. LOL. end up at the coffee bean. they bought drinks and we chilled. they were still taking vids and photos. everyone had to show a nice face followed by an ugly 1. really is Laugh Out Loud man. ronnie taught us the finger game and we guys played it. everyone showed their ultimate and David was the proest of all. his Reggae mad everyone Roll On Floor Laugh. LOL. bth. super fun day. took 963 back with ron nic jaei zx. shall upload e pics and vids when i get them. =)

wed.
met gen after sch and slacked at yew tee mac for awhile den go meet up david weijie baowen at acer. den they saw ron and nic on the infront bus going IMM so we also went there to find them. went Daiso searched for knee guards budden cant find suitable 1. so went other sports shop. had dinner @ LJS den went back sch studio to do some stretching exercises. and was damn motivated that day. keep psychoing myself to chiong. flexibility, fitness level and turnings.

thurs.
intensive training with willie begins. he can be counted as my shi fu. LOL. thanks master. for going thru all the warm ups and trainings. tml got dance class. WOOTS! skipping lecture tml. can sleep long long tonight. hehs.
and we watched this in studio today and laughed like mad.


where's my courage. come out pls.

imbal funny day at sentosa and vivo city. will blog abt it next time. hehs. i got 2 hrs extra to sleep today cuz this week e learning week. so no workshop for tml. =D