oh wow. i was dead tired when i reached home. this has been the most tired day of my life so far la. friday had dance prac den after that suprised wei jie at his hse. slept for 3 hrs and den had technique class on sat morn. after that went town with wei jie to buy ticks for 3.45am movie. cuz almost all ticks for the whole day were sold out for harry potter la. after that we went home 1st. i had dinner with family outside at amk. it's been quite long since i've had dinner with the 3 of them together outside la. after that went to heeren to meet PPPPP. changed eh movie ticks from 3.45 to 1.30. lol. BY RIGHT, sold ticks are non refundable nor exchangeable. tt's for staffs who follow the rules. but BY LEFT are staffs who're kind and nice to take the trouble and try their best to serve their customers. lol. played darts @ level 9 b4 watching the movie. it was OK only. transformers still own. and i wanna watch die hard 4! coming sat! woots.

accompanied those who went off early while they wait for their NR. and walked from cine to clarke quay. quite a nice walk. and started the childish step shadow game. LOL. by the time we reached clarke quay it was already near 6am. so didnt sat for long den went to take bus. ULTIMATE tired already at that time. reached home and bathe. slept around 8am and woke up at 5.20pm. busy weeks coming ahead!!!

15 to go!!! i need to pay sharp attention!!!

haven had enough rest for the past 2 days so shld giet myself a break by skipping sch tml. lol. i seriously dunno if i've over skipped any tutorials or workshops anot. shld be fine ba cuz i haven received any warning letter. LOL! have been chionging dance la. stretching arh. handstand arh. turning arh. now focusing on locking. woohoo. didnt expect myself to chiong locking la and i realised it's quite nice. especially when dancing to the music.

i wonder how the next 4 mths will be for me la. go for it JIAJUN!

tough time coming ahead. time to bang as many wall as possible. chionggggg ahhhhhh. *clash* *PING* *PIANG* *PONG* ok lame.

and i want to buy psp. and i've set a criteria for myself to fufil if i wan to buy it.

met with ppppp @ bukit batok for dinner and den homed alone. having slight flu which was a little bit irritating when i was hanging out with them. left at 9.45 and reached home an hour later. didnt expect it to take that long. when i alighted at my bus stop, i was suprised that it was windy. and den told myself that it'll be nice if there's weather like this everyday. but i realised it was windy becuz there's gonna be thunderstorm soon. got tricked by the wind huh? wad appears to be nice don't always turn out nice eh.

and i'm supposed to study for tml's marketing paper retest. hope i better study after blogging and not end up doing sth else huh. and yea. i wan to sing! i kinda like singing and i always wished i have a good voice. but things liddat are born with u huh. hahs. nvm. u dun have to have a good voice to sing. also not performing. juz for self enjoyment la. alrights. end of entry. bb.

17/11/07. the date's set. now i will........................

omg i am a loser. i have loser thoughts.

sometimes human need to remember that they are just human. and not make ourselves suffer just to achieve perfection in everything u want. as long as u're doing ur best and feel happy with it, it's enough. a human only has a life, live a life with no regrets, live it well.

3am. finally later got technique class. stretch stretch stretch! and juz now everyone's learning handstand. cuz all wan learn air freeze. dope lor. lol. DANCE DANCE DANCE. i so wanna work hard and improve.

damn. i wonder if my day will be bad today. knocked my head against the bed when going to sleep. woke up at 4am+ with a dumb headache. went sch and got back my marketing paper and i failed. expected though. lol. someone pray a good day for me thx.

LONG PHOTO POST! STARTING OFF WITH BOSS B'DAY!

basically, he chua sai that day cuz he was dancing halfway and we chionged in and pinned him down. his face was pale for the whole night after that happened. LOL!

My 1st time @ Sakae Sushi with PPPPPxing's church event EMERGE`07 @ EXPOSuprise party for eve @ Alex's place tt's what will happen when BOSS offended his subordinates.
FULL strength PPPPP @ 14Tourists in Museum.

After the party, we left alex's place for yewtee's kopitiam and we found the dopest kopitiam to take photos. LOL! we talked till 6am+ that day.

My 1st individual photo with EVE =)))M&N = Messy & Nice
PPPPP's official handsign
my individual lauuuuu saiiii pose. i quite like the pic. LOL.EVERYONE FLOOD THE PLACE WITH LAUUUUU SAIIII TOGETHER! The day eve left for Perth.

June 29th Performance @ Whitley secondary

and here we have miss "scared of jiajun calls nickname" my "wear-same-clothes" buddy. LOL! everyone with ann PPPPP with Ann =) went to catch transformers and den all went home.

The few of us left at dhoby ghaut's bus stop started taking photos.

LOOK! xing's on the bus stop poster! ahahahaha! a lil editing of black and white would make this look cool.
FAKE figure 4. LOL
oh no! ronnie's gonna slam me.
i like this photo the most. trying some stuntsLittle Man. LOL! i need to learn how to love people whom i love around me, if not i dun deserve their love at all. abit confusing huh? lol. ok la. rephrase. i need to learn how to show care and concern + everything i can do to show that i love, to people whom i love instead of just thinking or saying that i do love them. love is actually something that you do and not feel. the feeling of love u have for someone has another word to describe it but i forgot. why is love sth that you do and not feel? cuz if love someone, you wont do things to hurt the person. so if u think u love someone but end up hurting him or her, it shows that u ain't loving the person man. LOL. tt's why i think i need to learn how to love people if i want people to love me back. u cant just have feelings for someone and expect them to have feelings for you when you're juz sitting around like a boss do you? lol. why would i talk abt such a thing in the 1st place. its becuz i was reminded of e past where i hurt people whom i "loved". so now i shld start learning how to love my family and friends. ok. enough of this LOVE word. LOL.

alrights. its the end of this long long post. 3.17am. sleep time!
i wanna hang out with PPPPP more and take more photos. =)

damn. my character is getting from bad to worst. getting impatient and pissed over every little things. it might be due to having not enuff sleep. when i take buses around to travel i scold f*** when a bus can get thru a traffic junction b4 red light yet it juz slowly takes its time and wait for the next 1. i get pissed when i think of doing projects. the worst is giving a pissed off tone whenever i pick up phone calls from my mum. i've already made her worry whenever i didnt inform her abt going home late and yet i still don't talk to her nicely making her feel even more upset. damn this child of hers(which is me). i may seem entertaining to my friends but it's juz a way to let off a lil bit of my stress. i want to be happy and i want to be nice to ppl around me. but i'm juz getting so stressed out. maybe 1 day i'll be joining nic wearing helmet budden it'll be a white one. LOLOLOL. someone enlighten me pls.

A lecturer was giving a lecture to his student on stress management
He raised a glass of water and asked the audience,
"How heavy do you think this glass of water is?"
The students answers ranged from 20g to 500gm.
"It does not matter on the absolute weight.
It depends on how long you hold it.
If I hold it for a minute. It is Ok.
If I hold it for an hour, I will have an ache in my right arm.
If I hold it for a day, you will have to call an ambulance.
It is the exact same weight but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."
"If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later,
we will not be able to carry on as the burden becoming increasingly heavier.
What you have to do is to put the glass down,
rest for a while before holding it up again."
We have to put down the burden periodically,
so that we can be refreshed and are able to carry on.
So before you return home from work tonite, put the burden of work down.
Don't carry it back home. You can pick it up tomorrow.
Whatever burdens you are having now on your shoulders,
let it down for a moment if you can.
Pick it up again later when you have rested.
Rest and relax. Life is short.

this mail was sent to me on Tuesday, November 11, 2003 2:25 AM and i'm still keeping it. lol. i keep mails which are meaningful. dont really rmb which was the longest mail i've kept. i've so much weight on me that i need to let go.

i always ask myself to try but.............

feeling so useless