damn. my character is getting from bad to worst. getting impatient and pissed over every little things. it might be due to having not enuff sleep. when i take buses around to travel i scold f*** when a bus can get thru a traffic junction b4 red light yet it juz slowly takes its time and wait for the next 1. i get pissed when i think of doing projects. the worst is giving a pissed off tone whenever i pick up phone calls from my mum. i've already made her worry whenever i didnt inform her abt going home late and yet i still don't talk to her nicely making her feel even more upset. damn this child of hers(which is me). i may seem entertaining to my friends but it's juz a way to let off a lil bit of my stress. i want to be happy and i want to be nice to ppl around me. but i'm juz getting so stressed out. maybe 1 day i'll be joining nic wearing helmet budden it'll be a white one. LOLOLOL. someone enlighten me pls.

A lecturer was giving a lecture to his student on stress management
He raised a glass of water and asked the audience,
"How heavy do you think this glass of water is?"
The students answers ranged from 20g to 500gm.
"It does not matter on the absolute weight.
It depends on how long you hold it.
If I hold it for a minute. It is Ok.
If I hold it for an hour, I will have an ache in my right arm.
If I hold it for a day, you will have to call an ambulance.
It is the exact same weight but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes."
"If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later,
we will not be able to carry on as the burden becoming increasingly heavier.
What you have to do is to put the glass down,
rest for a while before holding it up again."
We have to put down the burden periodically,
so that we can be refreshed and are able to carry on.
So before you return home from work tonite, put the burden of work down.
Don't carry it back home. You can pick it up tomorrow.
Whatever burdens you are having now on your shoulders,
let it down for a moment if you can.
Pick it up again later when you have rested.
Rest and relax. Life is short.

this mail was sent to me on Tuesday, November 11, 2003 2:25 AM and i'm still keeping it. lol. i keep mails which are meaningful. dont really rmb which was the longest mail i've kept. i've so much weight on me that i need to let go.