just blogged abt being optimistic today and den i got moody after that. and i realised mood aint something that u can tell urself to change. once it affects u, it'll take some time to go away. i got moody for awhile cuz of something and den after that i wasnt thinking abt it anymore but the moody feeling still got stuck there. i keep shaking my head ask me wake up and laughed my ass out during the self prac for btg while trying to be funny but the moody feeling still stuck inside. i thought i was tired budden i slept enough wad. all i feel like doing juz now was to juz take a nap and wake up hoping it's gone. but i chose to take class instead. chionged through the warm up and sequence with a blur mind and pespire like siao. and after that i started feeling better while learning the choreo. by the end of the class, i'm totally alright! hehs.

i know ppl must be thinking i'm crazy and going to get myself gg-ed if i type this. but i juz hate my brain for being so inconsistent. sometimes it feels so right to like a person while sometimes it feels so wrong to do so.

and i saw this from peggy's nick. "there's nothing right or wrong, its the thinking that makes it so". so true. juz imagine that if in this world, human are born to kill each other to survive. everyone will have THOUGHT it was the right thing to for them to do. so THINKING matters the most actually. i don't noe how to explain it la. it's such a complicated thing. juz remember that people around u affect wad u think. decide if it's RIGHT or WRONG urself. it's part of LIFE.


Life is complicated and tough, because we have to THINK and DO and den FEEL.
Maybe some imba mathematicians can come out with formulas for LIFE so that when u add THINKING + DOING = FEEL HAPPY
I dun think i'm leading a really happy life now cuz i still lack of what i want. which i might not actually get it anytime soon.
Humans can actually choose how they feel, but i chose to feel unsatisfied. I don't think it's wrong doing so. Humans always have their own needs and wants. I have mine.