heavy rain. emo day. since a few days ago, i keep getting emo. for some reasons which i think too much abt. didnt feel like going dance when i was on my way home after meeting gen and sharon. she was sad and sian but i couldnt do anything laaa. i told myself to go for dance prac still, and end up sian 1/2. waited 2 hrs b4 class start. didnt have the mood to dance too.

kept listening to emo songs to keep me emo. tt's abit retarded i noe. talked to some people abt my probs. some things they said were true but i really have to clarify that i'm not confused with my feelings. it's FEELINGS, not THOUGHTS. it's TRUE, not FAKE. sigh. did i fall for the wrong person again. the power of having a crush is so self destructive. especially when i dunno how to express my feelings well and at the same time don't understand the other person's feelings well.

i'm like that. always too rush into things. always thinking of too much stuffs. have to learn to keep my pace low and take a step at a time. instead of getting impatient with myself and get frustrated and emo all over. i am a sucker afterall.

i found sth out and i'm kinda relieved abt it. i'm not going take any actions abt anything.

things not meant to be mine wont be mine. unless i try. =)